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tendtoenunciateThis Is Kanaya Maryams Livejournal
Or It Was But Then It Transformed Into A Dreamwidth When I Wasnt Looking
Im Still Not Entirely Clear On How That Happened
I Have Taken The Courtesy Of Not Speaking In My Blood Color Or The Standard Font To Display Cultural Sensitivity
Though If You Want To Converse In The Fashion To Which I Am Most Accustomed That Would Be Fine
If You Would Like Me Not To Represent My Enunciation Textually That Would Also Be Acceptable Though I Would Prefer Not To All Things Being Equal
It Causes Me Moderate Strain
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So I Hope You Are At Comfort
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Thats All
Or It Was But Then It Transformed Into A Dreamwidth When I Wasnt Looking
Im Still Not Entirely Clear On How That Happened
I Have Taken The Courtesy Of Not Speaking In My Blood Color Or The Standard Font To Display Cultural Sensitivity
Though If You Want To Converse In The Fashion To Which I Am Most Accustomed That Would Be Fine
If You Would Like Me Not To Represent My Enunciation Textually That Would Also Be Acceptable Though I Would Prefer Not To All Things Being Equal
It Causes Me Moderate Strain
Anonymous Commenting Is Enabled For The Use Of Anyone Unable To Register An Account Here
They Arent Screened Because That Would Be Somewhat Troublesome For Actually Conducting Conversations With Anonymous Browsers
But The Logging Of Addresses Following The Four-Point Specifications Of This Grubnet Is Off As Well
So I Hope You Are At Comfort
My Profile Contains The Means Of Connecting To Trollian With Me If Desired
Thats All
[Voice]
Date: 2012-03-03 05:55 am (UTC)Or is that too much to ask a some gutterblood trash?
::...Ouch, okay, that was low. Even for him. And he likes Kanaya, which is more than he can say about most landdwellers. He wishes he could at least talk to Karkat. Kar would be able to tell him what he's fucking up so badly. Or Fef, before all that shit went down between them.
What he is not aware of is the fact that it's less these specific trolls he wants, as it is a moirail he subconsciously knows he needs.::Look that wwas loww a me to say an' I'm not proud I said it but wwill you stop readin' into wwhat I'm sayin' like ewerything about me has to do wwith quadrants an' maybe giwe me enough credit to think I might actually just be wworried about my friend an' auspistice wwho wwasn't fuckin' there wwhen I needed her?
Actually no it's not ewen about me but I think somethin' bad happened like real bad 'cause she's not okay an' I don't knoww wwhat to do but she needs someone an' it sure as fuck isn't me.
[Voice]
Date: 2012-03-03 06:36 am (UTC)I don't do that nearly half as badly as everyone else was doing back [hive] - this is the first time in a very long time that I've made such an accusation and it's because it was flagrant. But, fine. I'll drop it. Into the dirt. In my landdweller's capacity.
[Troll hell hath no fury like an ashen girlfriend scorned. She's genuinely hurt (fuck his "most important landdwweller a all" routine, fuck it so hard) but she is equally genuinely dropping it.] So. Tell me what happened.
[Voice]
Date: 2012-03-03 06:41 am (UTC)Newer mind. Think wwhat you wwant. Wwhatewer.
::There will be some silence, accompanied by the sounds of things being moved, and a bit of rustling, and he is definitely not going to turn on video now because she would definitely take the pile he's formed the wrong way.
He really wishes Kar or Fef were here. But the pile is enough to soothe his frazzled nerves to where he can drop the prior subject.::
I don't knoww.
I wwent to apologise to her ower the netwwork cause I figured she'd at least you knoww maybe hear me if I did it like that instead a just throwwin' shit at me or yellin' ower me if I tried doin' it in person an'...
She didn't look so good.
Like she wwas in a showwer fully dressed an' like maybe she wwas hurt not lookin' so good.
[Voice]
Date: 2012-03-03 07:01 am (UTC)Hurt... how, exactly?
[She's getting a bad feeling about this. And--]
Wait. Did that video clip I intended to make with the note and such go through? Were there any particular reactions I should know about? Or did you just find out about what happened by assuming from my disappearance in conjunction with Gamzee's. [Did Gokudera or God knows who take it the wrong way -- is Samus ashamed of her -- she doesn't know. But there's no way the asylum didn't react somehow to seeing all that blood.]
[Voice]
Date: 2012-03-03 07:10 am (UTC)An' she wwas just...
Stagnant.
::Pardon his nautical metaphors.
After a brief pause, he snorts.::
Oh yeah it wwent through all right. Complete wwith the sounds a you an' that wwanna be highblood gettin' sent on your wway to meet Davvy fuckin' Jones. Or wwhoevver it is landdwwellers meet wwhen they die.
::If he's laughing, it's a quietly desperate sort that suggests he's laughing because if he doesn't, he will humiliate himself as a seadweller.::
I didn't look to see if it got responded to or wwhat though.
[Voice; 1/2]
Date: 2012-03-03 07:18 am (UTC)[Flippantly finding something that should be funny, to go along with his laugh, as she casually browses through the network to che--]
[Voice; 2/2]
Date: 2012-03-03 07:20 am (UTC)No.
Oh, god, no.
Well... they... probably... just... got into... a really bad... fight... or something... Sure...
Stay cool, Maryam.]
Say, how long has it been? That I was dead. Did anything else happen in the meantime.
[Voice]
Date: 2012-03-03 07:31 am (UTC)::He thinks she's serious. Oh dear.::
It's been a couple a nights an' all I knoww for sure wwhat's happened is Rea wwas actin' all strange an' somethin's been screamin' like an angel in the middle a the fuckin' night wwhen some a us are tryin' to get shit done.
::Does he suspect who it is? Yes. Does he ever dare go any closer to her room than the stairwell door leading to her hallway? No. He knows he's worse than useless in this situation, as much as it pains him to admit it even to himself.::
[Voice]
Date: 2012-03-03 07:46 am (UTC)...okay, can we just clarify whether this screaming belongs to a young woman with hairstreaks and a certain kind of accent because I think we've been here long enough to know.
[She quietly makes a note to herself to investigate this at some point tonight, as reluctant as she is to. Everything she hears makes her notion of this situation worse. Why does she have to fail her girlfriend so completely? God, she's too young for this... it's hard being a kid and growing up. It's hard and nobody is ever going to get tired of this phrase.]
[Voice]
Date: 2012-03-03 07:48 am (UTC)If you fuckin' tell anyone this I wwill be so fuckin' pissed at you but look. I don't knoww wwhat to do or howw to help but I'm pretty sure me showwin' up wwhen she's havvin' one a them screamin' fits is pretty much the last thing that wwould help. I think it'd only make things wworse givven our history.
[Voice]
Date: 2012-03-03 07:52 am (UTC)I'm sad to say that you're probably right about your presence being less helpful than anything. [Beat.] Have you considered. Maybe doing something that's in a purely conciliatory fashion nice? I'm not sure that it would work out, but it's a less guaranteed hurt...
[Voice]
Date: 2012-03-03 07:55 am (UTC)Like wwhat? I'm not seein' anythin' I could be doin' that wwould make things up to her I mean I hurt her pretty bad didn't I? The wway the both a yous reacted makes me think I did.
[Voice]
Date: 2012-03-03 05:13 pm (UTC)You betrayed us, Eridan. You do realize that, right. Or am I missing out on some critical aspect of seadweller culture that says it's acceptable to make out with your conciliatory quadrant fills. Because, even from our perspective, what you did was wrong. Even if you hadn't misunderstood me and she would have somehow been receptive [and she is a little quieter, for a moment, as she does the teenager thing and feels all the culpability herself] it still would have been wrong. ["To your auspistice", she doesn't say.]
And now trying to take it from the alien perspective. ...which honestly is terribly difficult to do when it's like this because she's got an ashen fill and, regardless of what you might have to say about her emotions, a situation closely resembling a pale one -- I still don't know how humans think. [She's struck by sudden longing for that Rose girl she once knew. This kind of thing would have fascinated her, and later on it strongly seemed like she might actually be almost competent in the field. But that was a six hour twelve minute aberration. It's not like she'd ever show up. Another troll, maybe, but not some alien acquaintance, however significant she may have seemed at the time. The entire idea comes to mind and gets rejected by Kanaya in the space of a seconds.] What she could have been thinking when the two of you were. Like that. [Beaten and bruised and legs entangled and she was on top, the stupid beautiful girl, with blood on her lips and underneath her nails... yes, Kanaya's jealous. Not of either partner, but their position... Bite her. (Andrea'd've made such an excellent troll.)] But. You know how unreasonable she sometimes is. What I'd guess the situation has become in her mind -- of course I wasn't there, so I don't know exactly how things started, I still don't know why she started fighting back other than being stupid -- was that you had come out of nowhere to both beat her up and provide funwanted concupiscent advances. And if those are conflicting rather than complementary, then it's only worse, I guess.
So I wasn't thinking you should try to talk to her. Just. Drop off lunch or something.
[Voice] || 1/2
Date: 2012-03-04 01:14 am (UTC)Yeah. I... I.
It's just.
I don't.
::You know what? Emotional management is for calmer trolls than he.::
[Voice] || 2/2
Date: 2012-03-04 01:16 am (UTC)The feed shuts off right after the first noise that might, through the feedback and hissing, be the comm unit hitting the floor.::